Having a day that started with being locked out of my apartment while drunk at 7am... then proceeded to spin downwards until total exhaustion.
I've met so many new friends here and they are all interesting people whom with some I feel like I will know for many years to come. I've come to the conclusion since my first month here that I would stay for an extra year. This was the result of many factors, including people here and my own position. It would benefit me more in financial and personal way.
The first time I doubted that cemented decision was today. I was a bit late in taking my meds due to the locked door which means emotional roller coaster for the rest of today. Its a double edge sword... I either have to cry (which I ended up doing on the bus with people staring) or throwing up.
Easy to say the reason I despise medications is because it has the ability to control your emotions and cap them off. I started the weaning off process last Sunday and I'm hoping to be off the meds in a month. Big milestone for me since I've been on them since April 2009. I think that will be my only new years resolution this year. Something easy and controlled, tired of the unexpectedness that is life.
Back to the doubt in topic. I realized when wanting to talk to someone real bad at 3pm on a Sunday (1am on a Saturday in Toronto) I had no one I could talk to. That feeling paired with other things I'm going through right now gave me quite a heavy heart. It was a gasped moment of dead realization and hurt at the same time.
Korea has been a great experience for me and I still love what I came here for, the food, the people, the language and the culture. But I didn't see the empty friendships built here on the forever turning time wheel of a one year contract.
Got some thinking to do...
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