As I sat down and said to myself (after having a good night) I'm going to have lunch at our beloved kimbap nara tomorrow by myself. Making it my first meal by myself... then it donned on me... 2 weeks ago after work before heading to yoga, I had a sudden lazy moment and decided I didn't want to go home and make a meal in 10 minutes and gobble it up. So i headed over to kimbap nara and ordered kimbap to stay, got my soup and kimchi and sat there for 20 minutes eating.
It was so non eventful and no feeling of nervousness rushed over me that I barely remember it until this moment... kinda of sad something I have worked towards for so long passed without a mention. But that tells me that although no milestones have passed with my moving to Korea, I have learned on some level to be by myself.
The invisible rock that didn't seem so heavy until it was lifted has been plaguing my life through my everyday decisions and controlling my activities in reflection of the fear i felt inside suddenly seems so trivial.
That is truly all...
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