By Myself

I have a goal, to overcome a fear that has long been controlling my basic everyday activities. A fear of being by myself, whether with eating a meal, shopping, driving or even being on the subway. I've taken a willed step towards overcoming this. Although its a bit forced because in about 3 days I will be by myself whether I'm okay with it or not. So its not so much willed as acceptance of the situation or should I say opportunity I have provided for myself.

Two days ago I did a lot of driving on my own, normally if I'm in mississauga late I will stay at Matts and I contemplated it for a while but I decided against it, on the way home I played music from my playlist on matts iphone (my new ipod for korea) and through the 10 songs on there I felt a lot of emotions. Encouraged, determined, sad and scared through each song. Talk about music being influential lol

I can only "try" so much before the real thing hits but practice is practice I guess...
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